I am beyond agitated right now! Actually, scratch that. I'm furious. Angry. Full of hatred.
I know my mum does it because she cares too much for me. But caging me up like a bird is not going to show it. It's going to turn me into a feisty, rebellious teen. I'm approaching twenty soon and she still treats me like a 3-year-old. It's nice to know that she gives me so much attention. Too much attention for my own good.

I'm actually less annoyed right now. Managed to calm myself now before penning this down. I can't wait to return to school. I'm so damn determined to achieve my 2010 goals. Getting excellent grades throughout the semester and scoring an internship at ANY firm. Any firm will do. Just let me stay back and rot there. Rather than returning home and bearing with all these naggy nonsense..

I need immediate help right now. These few days, i've been feeling suicidal. The thought of killing myself seemed like the easy way out. I know it sounds absurd. Readers out there would judge me. " Taking the easy way out in life...on such petty matter". Nothing major happened to me. Yet I'm really feeling suicidal. It's been on my mind for 3 days. Minor problems would trigger that thought.

It's disgraceful to admit it. Taking life for granted...when other people are striving to live in the harshest conditions. I wished I didn't feel this way. I wished things would be better.

And i can only hope...