I am beyond agitated right now! Actually, scratch that. I'm furious. Angry. Full of hatred.
I know my mum does it because she cares too much for me. But caging me up like a bird is not going to show it. It's going to turn me into a feisty, rebellious teen. I'm approaching twenty soon and she still treats me like a 3-year-old. It's nice to know that she gives me so much attention. Too much attention for my own good.

I'm actually less annoyed right now. Managed to calm myself now before penning this down. I can't wait to return to school. I'm so damn determined to achieve my 2010 goals. Getting excellent grades throughout the semester and scoring an internship at ANY firm. Any firm will do. Just let me stay back and rot there. Rather than returning home and bearing with all these naggy nonsense..

I need immediate help right now. These few days, i've been feeling suicidal. The thought of killing myself seemed like the easy way out. I know it sounds absurd. Readers out there would judge me. " Taking the easy way out in life...on such petty matter". Nothing major happened to me. Yet I'm really feeling suicidal. It's been on my mind for 3 days. Minor problems would trigger that thought.

It's disgraceful to admit it. Taking life for granted...when other people are striving to live in the harshest conditions. I wished I didn't feel this way. I wished things would be better.

And i can only hope...

Next destination

Did I mention that I'm going to Vietnam and Singapore?? HEHEHE oh yes I am.
I'm incredibly excited right now I can jizz in mah pants. I kid I kid. Tone down the vulgarity!

I'm leaving tomorrow morning at 6, flight's at 7. reaching vietnam around 10? I was told that it takes 3 hours...Plane rides are the best part of travelling in my opinion. The anticipation to get on the plane, the little lurch in your tummy when the plane takes off, and the feeling of relieve as it lands. It's amazing.

On an unrelated note, today's my last day at work! ( I hope) My dad was casually mentioning that I should take leave on monday and tuesday. Isn't my internship till end of Jan??? *gasps in horror*

I hope it is. It's just torturous out hereee..BOOHOOHOO. wails like a little brat

take a deep breathe and leap

Is it me, or blogging is so 200andlate? I used to read at least 10 blogs per night because updates back then were sooo frequent! now, everytime i click on the bloglink, the same old post appears. it's frustrating! haha, i'm such a hypocrite...fyi, i've closed 3 blogs for the past 3 years. If you do the math, that's a blog a year..Fret not! I'll try my very best to keep this blog alive..with my adventures! HAHA i joke.

Did I mention I'm currently interning (Yes, me. Working) in a factory-based company. Which means, dusty air, small office, limited staff. I've been penning down my "work" in a diary and i hope it comes in handy...one day!

Anyhoo, back to blogs ( i get sidetracked so easily! Need to focus woman!) I came across this blog and she brought up an interesting question. Of the 7 deadly sins, which is the worst??

For me..jealousy and sloth are on par with each other. I'm a terribly bitter and jealous at almost anything! Not proud of it and am trying to work on it. That's my 2010 goal.

SLOTH haha, i'm lazy since day 1. Been foretold that my characteristics are similar to a pig. SIGH, gonna work on it I promise.

Need to get some sleep now! Morning call at 7 tomorrow. DAYMN: (

(i hate working life)

the tiger roars

I was told two tigers living in the same house brings misfortune? (correct me if i'm wrong)
None of my family members are born in the year of tiger, fortunately? hahah, i'm not exactly the most staunch believer...i'm not an atheist though. I believe there's somebody up there, guiding us on every path taken. Blessing us occasionally, motivating us to pick up the broken pieces and move forward. Afterall, everything happens for a reason. Or does it?

Being a daddy's girl, he pampers me with anything I want/request for. However, I'm not spoilt! Really, I'm not. I know the boundaries....Knowing his little girl (me) loves durian with a passion, he drove to the night market to buy some grade A ones. FLESHY JUICY YELLOW GOODY.

It was heavenly

I was told that I'll be following my dad to vietnam for 3 days! YIPPEEEEE:D

Drink Eat Travel

Recently, I've developed a passion for traveling...who doesn't?
For me, travelling isn't about shopping/luxuries/glamour. It's about exposure,experience and best of all, indulging in different cultures. To witness the difference in ethnicity and traditions.....ENTICING is the word for it : )Few days ago, my dad brought me to Jakarta for a business trip. Haha truthfully, I was just parasiting..."business trip" my butt. I was amazed by the population...the hours locals spend on the road..the exquisite malls..the crazy inflated prices! ( I was a self-proclaimed millionaire in Jakarta)

Famous indonesian kuih lapis

The whole experience was really overwhelming...As notorious as the place can be, I was blown-away by malls. It's BEAUTIFUL...The shiny marbles plastered on the walls accompanied by eye-catching decorations..compared to the ones back home, jakarta wins HANDS DOWN!
Those who loves spicy food would love Indonesian food. It's mainly fried or barbequed, dipped into an array of chilly paste (of your choice) ...the explosion of flavours in your mouth is magnifico..I was amazed.

However, my dad didn't think it was THAT fantastic. He still preferred the food back home..the more chinese-oriented cooking. I guess it depends on your personal tastebud.

In two weeks...i'll be off to HONG KONG!:D yay to andy lau, yay to raymond lam *crosses finger*